When
I was young, dirt roads were a silent witness to my life, their dusty
presence taken for granted, as were crawdads, mules, may pops, BB
guns and the whistle of a Bob White Quail. Where I came from
there were also gators, cotton mouths, bull frogs and dragon flies as
wide as a farmer's hand. The callouses on that hand had
something in common with those dirt roads, something vague that I
understand in my heart but can't at the moment find the words
for.
Dirt roads had ditches running beside them, with barbed wire fences
defining the boundaries between road and field, and those fence wires
were weighted down with black berry vines and poison ivy. And
while my young spirit grew in an old farm house and its surrounding
woods and fields, the roads of dirt offered fantasies of the unknown
to a ten year old who could ride a mule and milk a cow, but could not
drive a truck until at least eleven years old. In the bull
frog
booming night, we would occasionally catch a glimpse of a wobbling
set of yellow head lights far down the road, signifying the
advancement of an automobile or truck. Coming in our
direction,
the boredom of country quiet was suddenly alive with the possibility
of a visitor. But, our excitement was usually short spent as those
hopeful lights would pass us by, doppelering on down the road, dust
slowly obscuring whatever short dreams we had entertained in the
possibilities of those fading beams. The
mysteries of those roads must have engrained themselves in my
mother's psyche as a young girl on an isolated farm, because as an
adult she never tired of just going for a ride. When we were children
a ride with her in the country was an adventure. Meadow larks on a
fence post weren't just birds, they were singing creatures that
required stopping the car to listen to, their yellow breasts
quivering in the southern sun as they spoke to one another, and, as
mom explained, they were speaking to and about us as well. No
stream was crossed that didn't require us to stop and peer into its
eddies and swirls, looking for minnows, snakes and turtles. She saw
things we never thought to look for, a teacher of the natural world
in a time when lowering our lips to cool sweet clean country water
was as normal as the hawks and eagles that soared above us. A
basket of fried chicken with biscuits, jam and sweet tea in the cool
woods along the way was enjoyed by all, with a soft nap afterwards,
my sweaty head in mom's loving lap. On the road again, mom's
commentary and observations would resume, our on going education not
to be matched in any school. The world around us was a
magnificent auditorium of learning, our mother the best of teachers. As
mom grew weak from cancer, she still delighted in the simple pleasure
of going for a ride. My dad was only too happy to be her chauffer,
her children happy to be passengers. I would give just about
anything to be blessed one more time to take a ride with my mom, one
hand in hers the other in my grandfather's calloused hard working
hands. I suspect that we could find an old dirt road out there
somewhere, if only in a dream, or a memory. Is there a difference?
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