Scattered visions near the
clock. It's 2 am. Disturbing noises on
side of the wall! It woke me up!
I thought I heard someone
get hit! I thought I heard someone fall! Then I heard him in a loud
With his deep rooted
illusions. Growing out from underneath him. Like roots from a tree.
He stood their firmly planted. Upset because he is who he wants to
be. He wears a mask! And he takes it out on the painted ladies around
him! When will they break the silence on being hit with domestic
I feel this issue of
domestic violence is around me still. It is next to me and
wakes me up at night. I hear neighbor's suffering from this. I know
what it is like to suffer from domestic violence because I am a
survivor of it. I know what it is like to feel all alone when
you are going through such a terrifying experience. And if anyone
that reads this, is currently going through this. Please know that
you are not alone. If you have not been through this then you may not
understand at all what it is like. I have been told by so many people
in the past well that happened a few years ago just get over it. Well
tell my Post traumatic stress that! Tell that to the nightmares that
I have. No-one understands the repercussions of their actions! If you
do not have a wound that is visible then people just cannot
comprehend what you are going through. Not all wounds are visible.
Not all disabilities are visible. But that does not make them any
less significant. It is really sad how society treats this
topic. I know because I have been through it. And I sympathize with
anyone that not only went through this or is suffering any kind of
mental illness. For the longest time I was afraid to speak out but I
felt that I had too! Not just for me but for others! I used to feel
guilty and shame because of the violence that I had been through.
Until one day I just looked at it in a different way. I am not the
one that beat myself up! I refuse to take on any guilt or shame for
what someone else did to me. I have nothing to feel guilty about. I
wish the court systems knew of what domestic violence and other
victims have gone through and maybe they would look at the laws a
little differently. If they knew of the mental health conditions that
we suffer from and what we are going through and how drastically our
lives have changed. Maybe they would feel differently.
And I feel like not only
do I relive it sometimes due to ptsd but I also relive it when I hear
my neighbors yelling and screaming. I have heard them hit each other.
And when I informed my landlord he did nothing to fix the situation.
Not only does the justice system fail us even people around us do as
well. I felt really let down that my landlord did not stick up for
me. And if you just stand by and let it happen and you are aware of
it then you are guilty too! Because this is not normal! No one should
live in fear. Everyone has the right to enjoy peace and comfort in
their home! Because the neighbors were so loud the police finally did
get involved however if the victim does not want to make a report
then their is nothing they can do. So the abuser continues to attack!
author's name in
of the message we
won't know where to send it.)