does it mean to be happy? To me love is happiness but happiness an
illusion. The happiness we see in movies, and on social media is
nothing more but fake. I mean come on, nothing is that perfect. To be
that perfectly happy has to be fake. Even if they are happy for the
moment , for how long will it last? I guess I will never be
happy until I can make myself happy. The problem is that I don’t
know what happiness is. I guess most of my life I am fake happy.
I can only count on my fingers like one or two moments in my life when I was truly happy. The day I gave birth to my son, and the two times I was released from prison. Even then it was shortly lived. My happiness quickly overturned when I remembered that I was a single mom living in a homeless shelter that could barely support herself or her newborn. The thought of finally being released from prison was cool until I realized that I had nowhere to go or better yet nothing at all, not even family support, so it was back to survival of the fittest.